Hey yo. People call me Shannen. I turn a year cuter older every 0829. I am already in college, but hey, I'm still young okay! Part-time student, full-time fangirl. Got a problem with me? Come to my sbox, but play by my rules or you'll be dead meat. ;D
Anyway, I'm a weird (im)mortal moving randomly through the melodramatic waves of life.
I repeat, I am not scary, I am Shannen.
P.S. Bash one of my biases and next time you wake up, you're in heaven. :)
I myself don't know either. lol. It's pretty much obvious I'm talking to myself rn. What am I doing here lurking at almost 1-frigging-AM. Sigh. Idc, after all my class later starts at 10 so no problem... I think. :))
I planned of changing my bloglayie. I already found the codes but I'm not in the mood to edit now. Laziness is attacking. Well, when did it ever stop attacking me -__-;; srsly.
Posting here for the sake of posting. Been busy with org application stuff and acads. No much time left for fangirling. D; This summer I'm not going to take any vacation because I'll ba having summer classes. How I wish I could go back to high school days when summer vacations are bliss!
Because this song is very dear. I find the lyrics very touching. Again, one of those -almost- rare moments when I go crazy over a song. Besides, it's sung by Jiyeon. /grins
시간이 점점 지날수록 점점 커져만 가는 내 맘을 너는 아는지 마음이 점점 커질수록 점점 늘어만 가는 눈물을 너는 알고 있는지
비가 그치고 나면 괜찮아질까 내 맘을 알까 아주 조금이라도
보고 싶다 보고 싶다 들리지 않는 목소리 입가에 맴돌다 그저 맴돌다 사라져 가고
사랑한다 사랑한다 말할 수 없는 아픔에 하루 지나고 지나갈수록 점점 작아져 가죠
눈물이 점점 흐를수록 점점 상처만 받는 내 가슴 너는 아는지 가슴이 점점 아려오고 점점 바보가 되는 내 모습 너는 알고 있는지
바람이 불어오면 사랑이 올까 내게로 올까 마치 거짓말처럼 네가
보고 싶다 보고 싶다 들리지 않는 목소리 입가에 맴돌다 그저 맴돌다 사라져 가고
사랑한다 사랑한다 말할 수 없는 아픔에 하루 지나고 지나갈수록 점점 작아져 가죠
알아 어쩌면 더 아파질 거란 걸 하지만 어쩔 수 없는 이런 내 마음
괜찮아요 난 괜찮아 내 맘 좀 다치면 어때 곁에만 있다면 너만 있다면 난 견딜 수 있어
사랑한다 사랑한다 가슴이 외치는 그 말 네가 아니면 안되는 내 맘 점점 커져만 가죠
내겐 그대뿐이죠…
------------------------ I won't post the english translations of the lyrics anymore. I'm just posting this here for reference (I don't want to fill my bookmarks with so many lyrics and all). Her voice is sooooo precious. I might consider having a cover of this soon. XD
Anyway the song is an OST for Jungle Fish 2. Woohoo, I'm still not done watching the english subbed vids. /fail/ Still on the fourth episode. Oh well, it has only eight episodes so I might finish it soon. Lee Joon rocks his role as Cinderella Man. His story was touching, though I can't help but laugh when his phone rings-- his ringtone is.. idk but it's about the story if Cinderella? Something like that, idk the title. XD I bet the fourth episode will show the story of Indie-dol. ;DDD
P.S. I missed blogging here. Lately I have been spazzing too much on Twitter, and busy reiviving my plurk/tumblr accounts. :)
So you see, I was sleepless yesterday night and I had to keep the boredom away from me. At that time I was having a Beast marathon on my music player so my mind had a (not-so-)clever idea.
I used all the songs from Mastermind and Light Go on Again albums to make a short (love) letter. Teehee roflmao. And it goes like this:
To Very Important U,
I'm sorry for clenching a tight fist because I'm having a hard time catching my breath. There had been a breakdown in my world that made it lightless and you are the mastermind for that.
I hope the lights go on again so I can see you, the most beautiful person on earth. I like you best!
Lots of Love, Yoseob's precious B2uty
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Lmao I know your faces right now are like "WTF" now but idc I did it because of boredom and for fun. At first I thought of doing a TVXQ version of this one but they have SOOOOO MANYYYY songs so I couldn't decide that time what songs to include lmao. But who knows, I might be able to make one for them next time boredom attacks me. <3
Bakit kaya may mga taong hindi matutong lumugar sa dapat nilang kalagyan? Mga hipokrito. Hindi ako mapanlait pero kung ako ang pipiliin mong awayin, baka hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong itapon ka sa dapat mong kalagyan.
I was offered a very good 'opportunity' on using the internet whole day, take note, for free! And being the internet-deprived I am now (yes I consider myself one), of course I accepted the invitation. Unk and I went to his school where he was a Computer teacher. Practically, most of the time he 'owns' the computer room so he invited me over (because he knows I am computer addict).
So, yeah. He left me to go somewhere I really don't know of. :) And then after several minutes of surfing the net, a lady (or is she really a girl?) guard knocked and so I let her/him enter. She asked lots of things like I'm a criminal and she's the interrogator. Like, what the fuck? She's only a guard. I am a relative of a teacher here. Know who you are talking to, shithead. I don't give a damn about you but heck you are one of a kind. You act like you own the school and the computer laboratory? Oh no, you got some nerve dude. Stop talking to me or else you'll be dead meat.
Okay, I'm not yet done venting my anger, but this is enough before she sees this and beat me with her gun. Psh, as if she really does her work here. Sshibal.
Lately God has been kind to me. On the first day of classes I didn't get lost because I already met a blockmate even before we see the lists of blocks, and she's already familiar to the university (since she was already there since she was in gradeschool). Hence, I didn't have to worry about being lost for the day. Wuhoo.
Yesterday afternoon, I was worrying about those handouts I wasn't able to get because we need it for today's lessons. But luckily I rode in the jeepney my blockmate was also riding in. She had those handouts I was talking about, and she'll give me a copy later. :)
And today! I was supposed to be 15 minutes late for my English class (yeah, my first class starts at 7am :/) But as I was walking through the building, there was a note in the main gate that says all classes on that building will be suspended for the day (there had been a fire last night, sadly). So I went home, and yeah, writing this post. :)
Thank you Lord for being very kind to me. I love you!
The title explains it all. Nuuu school is only 7 days away from me. /cries/ I still can't imagine myself going to college! Seems hard.
Anyway i still haven't bought anything, you know, not even gtec. T_T I wonder how my first day will be. Ohwell, i hope i won't get lost inside the campus. It's freaking BIG you need to have a ride just to get from one building to another. Pfft.
But looking on the brighter side, I will have money already! Yay! I'm planning to save money mainly for clothes and my fandom. Hehehe. ;D I just hope my daily allowance won't be 100php only. Gyahahaha!
So, yeah! Goodluck to all of us fellow freshmen. Ü
When I woke up today, I don't know but I just had this feeling that I will have a great day. It was a random thought actually. Hehe. And so far I'm still on a good mood. ^^
I went out to buy new headphones! My old headphone's mic is broken. I want to have covers lol. Just became interested. I don't have a good voice though; I just want the world to know that I love singing even though singing doesn't love me. /sadface
It was my first time to go alone on a mall that's unfamiliar to me. Hehehe it was my first time going to SM North ^_^V I didn't get lost tho. I just had to walk on every floor level repeatedly just to see what I am looking for. Gosh I completely don't know where CD-R King is! rofl /fail I wasn't able to find it but I bought headphones in the department store. lol
It was accidental but I also bought new shoes. lol I think it was cute. XD Kinda retro but it's fine. :)
Anyway, I'm super LSS-ed with my blogsong. Em considering it for my next cover teehee x3
Seriously. Terribly. Haii. I'm waiting for 11:11 and Mom's using the freaking laptop. Aish. I'm wishing for something big and helpful for me. God please grant it asap. T_T I'm willing to wait. Thanks.
Yah, I just saw this note on a facebook user named Excelsa Bañares. (lol I'm mentioning it for the credits ok) It's pretty cool. Look for the so-called meanings of your birthdays! Here:
Is your birthday day 1 of the month? Your Life You are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested in something, everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But if you learn to be more patient and complete what you have started, you will be successful in life. Your Love You believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn more about the person. Vise versa, people who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your __express! ion. Try not to end a relationship in a quarrel. --------------------------
------------------------------------------------------ Is your birthday day 2 of the month? Your Life You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from the outside world. You are clever and profound so there's a slight chance for self-control problem. Your Love Your love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented with your unrequited love. Your are a romantic and loyal lover. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 3 of the month? Your Life Although you are innocent and romantic but your ___ex-pression often mislead others that you are an active, fun loving kid. Because of your double personality, it's hard for others to really know the real you. You arecareful and patient. Your Love Your love is the greatest which often surprises others. No one can bring you to light when you are in love. Your confidence might lead you to the track your parents disagree. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 4 of the month? Your Life You usually think before acting which makes your life quite easy. But you often are the one who give yourself a hard time by being paranoid. People might not truly understand you but you are really nice to be around. You are cheerful , loyal and friendly. Your Love Still water runs deep, that's what you are. You always surprise others with your new character when you are in love. Your love trap often comes unexpectedly and your love life is full of surprises, but you lead the happiest love life. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 5 of the month? Your Life Although you are on the quiet side, but you enjoy excitement and changes. Routine is something you cannot stand. Because of your extreme confidence, you hardly ask others for opinion. You believe in leading your own life, and you have got the gift in doing so. Your Love Nothing can stop you from making progress in your love life. Once you are in love, you feel the ownership of your lover. A third party can only makes your jealousy becomes worse. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 6 of the month? Your Life You are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme that people find you nosey. Your hidden courage and dedication often surprise others. Your imagination is extremely unique. Your Love Your love life is on the smooth track because it grows from friendship. Although you may not make a sweet lover but your sincerity bring happiness to your couple. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 7 of the month? Your Life You are sensitive to changes around you but your feeling is hardly expressed. You hate exaggerations. Under your quiet personality, you are rather stubborn and self-ce! ntered. These qualities are the force behind your extreme persistence. Your Love You have enormous courage to please your lover. Your relationship often progress quickly. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 8 of the month? Your Life Yo! u have pleasant and friendly personality. People look u to your wit and imagination. You are unpredictable and hardly complete what you started, which sometimes create negative impact to people around you. Your Love Falling in love becomes your routine. Most of the time you are lucky. You fascinate people with good taste but you never have enough with one. Although your love progresses very fast, it never lasts. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 9 of the month? Your Life You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow. Your Love You won't revea! l your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 10 of the month? Your Life You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to be a renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame and honor is near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You are good in implementing your imagination and share it with others. You are always well dressed. Your Love You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feel like you own the person you fall in love with and that often blows your relationship. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 11 of the month? Your Life You are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualities and some even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible and adaptable. You are remarkably kind and moral person. Your Love You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Your lover will always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You will always be happy to hand around the one you love. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 12 of the month? Your Life You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper. Your Love You are willing to start off in one-sided love affairs because you strongly believe that you will eventually win his/her heart. On the other hand, once you are together, you always want to do things your way, which is often the fire starter. You usually run in a! nd out of love quickly. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 13 of the month? Your Life You are sincere and easy going. Flattering and charming around are not your style. You care so much for freedom that often leads you to the difficult path. Because of your sincerity, most people find you easy to be around although you are sometimes too str ightforward.
Your Love Your gentleness, care and sincerity make you an attractive person. Eventhough you don't intend to be charming, but you naturally are, especially in the eyes of opposite sex. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 14 of the month? Your Life You are so confident that sometimes you forget about the people around you. If you have to be in one of the two teams, you will choose to be in the winning team. On the! other hand, you are kind and caring but above all, you care for your own benefits. Your imagination is unique and often gets implemented shortly after it comes across. Your Love You will not get soft with the one you don't really like, no matter how hard he/she tries. But once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no getting back. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 15 of the month? Your Life You are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From the outside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true self is strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you fail to convince someone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your temper shows. Your Love You are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long. This is why you hardly win a decent relationship. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 16 of the month? Your Life You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true. Your Love You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist sight is not your style . -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 17 of the month? Your Life You ! neither want to be interfered nor have the desire to mess with others' life. But you are friendly and occasionally a party animal. You are always in a circle of friends. You often do things in your own way that occasionally go beyond the acceptable limit. People may find you childish and not very attractive in that sense. Your Love Your fun-loving character attracts opposite sex. Many of those are great.You often find yourself trapped among a few great guys while you have to choose only one. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 18 of the month? Your Life At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually you are cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only in good mood. One the other hand, when you are moody, no one would dare to be around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find you hard to be around. Your Love You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much you like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so your love affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity makes you very attractive. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 19 of the month? Your Life You are great in managing everything in your life and this is how you gain respect from others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feel that you are better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead you to the wrong p! ath. You are a free bird and want to lead your own life. Your Love You love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love, nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soon after that, you will make up in a way that surprises others. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 20 of the month? Your Life You are prudent, circumspect and take things seriously. Before you make any move, you will think of a few alternatives that might take a while. You are patient, imaginative and target oriented. You value friendship more than anything else. Your Love You usually study your partner carefully before making any move. You never demand anything beyond the natural quality of that person. Your sincerity doesn't bring excitement in your love life but it brings deeply grown relationship. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 21 of the month? Your Life You are curious and a true follower. You can please someone so much that it seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide your disagreement under your smiling face. This is a charming quality of yours. Your Love You are quite unlucky in love. You are loved by someone you don't like while your dream man is so far away. Your love life is occasionally under turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clear view of the guy in your heart. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 22 of the month? Your Life You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn. You should listen more to! others. You are a unique and charming individual. Your Love You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't let them get away without having hard time. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 23 of the month? Your Life You never live your life in the way others want you to. You are an independent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You are ready to face with the result of your decision. You are usually the one your friends count on. Your Love Because you love excitements, you occasionally get involved in forbidden love affairs. You may fall in love with a married person and no one can stop you from making progress. You are very charming, although you might not realize it. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 24 of the month? Your Life You are very optimistic and that's why you always enjoy life. You are gifted in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you. You'll be the first they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out. Your Love Sometimes you fall in love! just because you want to be in love, not that you really like that person. You always be seen as a sweet couple but you can't really get over your love ones from past. Your partner is usually crazy about you because you are remarkably charming and romantic. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 25 of the month? Your Life You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal. You always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will eventually bring you success. Your Love You adore y ur partner as the number one priority. You value your love one more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have potential to get married young. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 26 of the month? Your Life You are always curious! and responsive to changes. Routine life is not the way you choose to live. Travelling is your favorite hobby because excitement is what you are after. Your Love You will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes and goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be looking around for the next one. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 27 of the month? Your Life You are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheeks even when the matter is not that bad. This might be the result from being to pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a kind loving person. Your Love You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date may be. You are emanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 28 of the month? Your Life You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own ability. This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If you try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to see things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever. Your Love You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in your heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out before seeing any progress in love. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 29 of the month? Your Life You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not your interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination. You often feel tired of things a! nd people around you. Your Love You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of fights between you and your lover. Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 30 of the month? Your Life You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun to be with. Though you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities. Your Love You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is your birthday day 31 of the month? Your Life Your emotion is hard to predict. You can be sad this minute and happy in the next. People might find it difficult to follow your emotion and understand you. You tend to take things seriously. Your Love You take your time to study a person before falling in love. Once you decide that he or she is the one, no one can stop you from making progress, even your partner
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Yea it's pretty long post. :)) Mine's cool! ;D See for yourself people. lol
I have viewed my multiply account and I realized that it was already rotting. Anyway I'm kinda feeling awkward because my posts there sounds better than my Blogger posts. I think my English skills are slowly deteriorating. D:
By the way, I just came here to visit my blog. lol I feel like this blog is.. already near to being rotten as well. Hahahahaha! I can't think of anything to blog about. Do I sound repetitive? It's because of the word "blog". Darn. Hahahaha. -_-
PS: SOMEBODY GIMME A LINK OF SUJU'S BONAMANA PERF TODAY! I missed MuCore T_T
I celebrated Mothers' day yesterday. lol yeah it's an advanced 'celebration' because Mom won't be around today. We went to mall and then ate and fed our eyes with the cool view. ;D I also bought my Best Selection. Hooray! XD I got Changmin's photocard, which is not bad anyway. But I want Junsu's :(
I changed my layout! I just saw it after three seconds of browsing for bloglayies. I just picked it out of the blue because I was already sleepy that time ('twas around 3-4am duh). And I find it cute so nevermind. =))
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL THE MOMS OUT THERE! I love yaa Mom~ ♥
I have known this site for like.. a month already? And glad I'm learning new things about my future school. Some overheards are just damn funny lol. Their jokes about the top universities here in the Philippines are funny, well but some are already mean. Hehehe, no offense though.
So I was reading recent posts when I saw this:
"UP may not have all the facilities the rich world could offer, but that is what UP stands for.
To produce the BEST from the LEAST.
UP is not a world of comfort.
Only the tough ones can enter. Much so, only the tougher ones survive inside."
And lol, I got nervous at the last sentence. =)) Wala lang, random post, walang magawa eh.
I'm thinking about a lot of things lately. And what bothers me is that these thoughts keep on buggling my mind, even when I'm already in bed ready to sleep. :'( I spend one to two hours thinking of the same things. Gahh.
Haii. I just felt like updating my blog. I can't even think of anything to post. Anyway, Nu Abo is already growing on my ears. <333 Teehee Amber, I shupah love you. :)
I swear I'll sleep early tonight. I have to wake up fckng early tomorrow for my enrolment ;< Hassle. XD Advanced goodnight everyone? ;D
It's true. Today's 29, and it's our so-called monthsary today. ROFL yes we make friendship monthsaries seriously. She sent a group message greeting me happy monthsary and all that. Guess what, she wrote something.. touching? at the end of the message. Here it is: (I fixed the way it was written)
We have different beliefs But we agree with the same idea We always fight And she always win But I never give up So I end up crying. She never say sorry Instead slap me in the face Then I call her a bitch And she calls me a bitch too And we'll both laugh for no reason And thank God We're bestfriends.
Awww. Well I was kinda touched but it's corny! Really! I'm mean but I know she knows how I will react. =)) I still love her though. :)
Okay, Patrick Sugui isn't evicted. I'm very happy. Pambato kaya siya ng Mandaluyong! Well who wouldn't be happy anyway? ;D
Tricia was safe. Who expected that? Me. I knew she'd be safe. Wala lang, it was pure hunch. :) Nagmamarakulyo na siguro mga ayaw kay Tricia. lol. Don't worry I don't like her too, but I don't hate her as well. ;D Let's see! She might change for the better.
Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.
Here comes the list:
1. I love blue!
2. I am terribly sleepy but I still don't wanna go to bed!
3. Rachel, TVXQ's Best Selection will be released here? SRSLY?!
4. TSC, wait for me a little longer! I'll make sure next week I'll buy you. ;D
5. Planning to buy that cute 2ne1 shirt. XD
6. The BB pin as well!
7. I go completely random at times.
8. When I'm online on facebook, I go stalk the profiles of other people and then I discover so many things/secrets/whatsoever. XD
9. 8 more random things to list left! =))
10. I kinda dislike the way I look at my graduation picture.
11. Uhm, how do you change your own url in your tumblr? Coz I wanna change mine.
12. Why should it be SIXTEEN random things?
13. I promise to save money in college for several purposes (e.g. for fandom, clothes, food, et al)
14. I will go to Korea//Germany when I grow up! XD
15. Baby we keep the faith eternally! (My blog title lol)
16. http://bluedolphinxiah.blogspot.com (My blog, teehee! Kinda promoting my blog hehehe)
Fact: I actually cried yesterday night (because of you) with "Star Star Star" by SNSD playing on my phone. Dunno. I regret forcing my friend to tell the truth to me. That truth fckng hurts. I tell everyone it doesn't matter that much. But the truth is, it hurts to the core. What a coincidence, the song is playing again.
I have known you for years already. My liking for you has been.. on and off. You know that? I like him now, then after some time I will like another. And then I'll like him again for some reason. I dunno. That's what I am feeling now.
Sometimes I wish you didn't exist at all. Know why? I always see you everywhere. Literally everywhere. I hate to say this, but everytime I close my eyes I see you. Okay. Not everytime. But most of the time. Especially when I see you then I look away, I still feel like you're only inches away from me.
I just came to think of this now. Yes, just now. It's like I can't get you out of my system that easily. Most probably it'd take a very long time to forget you and your existence. Well, thank you anyway for ignoring me for the past several years, when we parted ways and lived our separate lives. And thank you for making me realize what the truth is. Thank you for making me everyday crazy for you. You don't know and absolutely will not know how much I like you after all those years.
I have liked many people. Seriously, from the extraordinary ones to the nerd ones. But still, there's still a space here that's reserved for only you. My liking for you had never been gone eversince.
Lord, please help me. Just this once. Give me one day when I'll never get to see him, nor hear his voice, nor think of him, nor hear anyone say his name. Please? Maybe that way I can forget that fckng person. Thank you Lord.
It's our first day practicing for our Junior-Senior Promenade on March. That was an effng whole day practice. And I don't think I can make it until the last day (we'll practice for 3 whole days). My feet and lower legs hurt so much. It sucks wearing high heels, really. :) I even exchanged shoes with Queenie (of course with shorter heels) but still it hurts. I was walking so awkwardly all throughout the practice. Jkim, Mariel and others are teasing me. Mga adik kayo. >D
Well my lower legs don't hurt much anymore now, so it's okay. :)) Anyway, in return we will have no classes naman eh. WUHOO! =) It will be almost fine for me, don't worry. XD
Anyway, let's go to some fandom business. Well I am still spazzing over U-Kiss' teaser of their album. Blonde Dongho is really handsome! Vid? Here:
Teeheeeeee~ I like their tattoos lmao XD DONGHO I can't get over you why why why? XD
Earlier, as we were sitting (getting some rest after the practice), I borrowed a fan because I'm sweating (wtf, we're sitting under the scorching sun wtf srsly XD). Then when I looked at the back of the fan there were some krn words written on it. It said, "소녀시대", "소원을 말해봐", "라차타", etc. My mind said, "fangirl! XD" I asked the person whom I borrowed the fan from. "Whose fan is this?" She said, 'It's my partner's." LMAO at that because her partner is (naturally) a boy! It's a fanBOY! XDDDD I was kinda surprised to know that. :) I only know fangirls in our school you know. :)
Well, three days of no classes, FUNNNNNN =)) Minus the tiring practice and the leg pains. :] Well I can endure that anyway. x)
PS: Goodbye for now Beast/B2st. :((( I will miss you! D;