You don't know me.

'Cause you are on the other side of the world

I see you. Hey yo. People call me Shannen. I turn a year ~~cuter~~ older every 0829. I am already in college, but hey, I'm still young okay! Part-time student, full-time fangirl. Got a problem with me? Come to my sbox, but play by my rules or you'll be dead meat. ;D

Anyway, I'm a weird (im)mortal moving randomly through the melodramatic waves of life.
I repeat, I am not scary, I am Shannen.

P.S. Bash one of my biases and next time you wake up, you're in heaven. :)

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NEI - BEAST Medley (Piano ver) by maria cherrie

And like colors on photos, we will fade away

marhaebwa.

When are you coming back?

Memories, just like love, fade away

Nan neoman saranghae.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010 || 5:41 PM

Fact: I actually cried yesterday night (because of you) with "Star Star Star" by SNSD playing on my phone. Dunno. I regret forcing my friend to tell the truth to me. That truth fckng hurts. I tell everyone it doesn't matter that much. But the truth is, it hurts to the core. What a coincidence, the song is playing again.

I have known you for years already. My liking for you has been.. on and off. You know that? I like him now, then after some time I will like another. And then I'll like him again for some reason. I dunno. That's what I am feeling now.

Sometimes I wish you didn't exist at all. Know why? I always see you everywhere. Literally everywhere. I hate to say this, but everytime I close my eyes I see you. Okay. Not everytime. But most of the time. Especially when I see you then I look away, I still feel like you're only inches away from me.

I just came to think of this now. Yes, just now. It's like I can't get you out of my system that easily. Most probably it'd take a very long time to forget you and your existence. Well, thank you anyway for ignoring me for the past several years, when we parted ways and lived our separate lives. And thank you for making me realize what the truth is. Thank you for making me everyday crazy for you. You don't know and absolutely will not know how much I like you after all those years.

I have liked many people. Seriously, from the extraordinary ones to the nerd ones. But still, there's still a space here that's reserved for only you. My liking for you had never been gone eversince.

Lord, please help me. Just this once. Give me one day when I'll never get to see him, nor hear his voice, nor think of him, nor hear anyone say his name. Please? Maybe that way I can forget that fckng person. Thank you Lord.

난 너만 사랑해.

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